I felt a vague urge to post today. I am planning on spending more time on the Sandokai this weekend, so that post has to wait. Kicking myself for not participating with the sangha book club when they read it, but did have a lot going on at the time. I would like to keep track of my daily sitting/studying time on this blog in some way. This blog is more or less my own personal meditation/study journal. While I don’t mind if others read it or comment on it, that isn’t the reason why I write it. When I first started it, I toyed with the idea of keeping it private. In the end, I decided not to. Why would I, really? There is nothing on here I am ashamed of. And if my frustrations as another idiot on the path to enlightenment help another soul, that is a good thing. Not that I expect them to, but one never knows what word will turn on the light bulb for someone else.
So yeah. Gonna add another page. Not sure yet exactly how I plan to do this, may just be another page, or maybe some kind of calendar widget. I don’t want to get too hung up on it. Just want a place to record my daily practice times, and what studying I’ve done. I still feel at loose ends. I feel a deep underlying need to develop my practice further, but I am unsure how to go about it. I sit daily, study almost daily, attend a weekly sitting with a physical sangha, a monthly zazenkai with a physical sangha, keep up with the Treeleaf sangha podcasts, read daily and occasionally participate on the Treeleaf boards… but something in me craves more.
Just sit, Joshin. Just sit. I should really stop with the cravings, eh?
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